Saturday, July 25, 2009

binkies and backpacks

Charlotte has been hiding binkies. I have been trying to "taper her off" the binky by only giving it to her at bedtime. But this little stinker is smart. When she wakes up, but before she lets me know she is awake, she launches the binky or drops it behind her bed. Pretty soon I here her. "Mama.... mama..." I go in to get her. There is no binky in the bed. I change her pants and put her down to play. An hour later she will be walking around with a bink in her mouth. She remembers where she hides them! I almost feel like she should get to keep it for being so clever, but I have been putting her down without the bink.
I have started selling stuff on ebay to support my junking habit. Actually, it is more to get rid of stuff. I never got to have the garage sale, but I will have one this season!

Brooklyn is more than ready for school. I have been accumulating her school supplies over the last month, so it isn't such a big chunk of change at once. Her new school clothes are hanging neatly in her closet. We splurged a little and ordered this back pack from pottery barn kids:

Kindergarten is a big deal, you know. I am not ready for her to go. I will think of her all day long and miss her and wonder if she is using her manners or talking when she shouldn't be. (I always got in trouble for this, I fully expect she will too.) Will she make quick friends? Will she eat like a bird at lunch? 

I am headed back to school too. Slow and steady wins the race, right? I know I have to keep plugging along, but the finish line feels so far away. Speaking of finish line, I am thinking about running again. I used to love running. With every pound of my foot on the pavement I seemed to figure something out. Its just making the time...

I have so much to do. I need some coffee...

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Baby Beckett

Beckett also

I recently took my nephew's newborn pictures! Isn't he so pretty? I couldn't get enough of him! I think this is my favorite shot, so I just thought I would share.

Okay, a few more, because I just can't help it!

Beckett too

baby Beckett

Happy Wednesday!!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Brooklyn's room :: part 1

I thought I would share a few corners of Brooklyn's room. This room is always changing...


It's fun to see all the bargains I have found for her room over the years. 

This dresser was $39.99 at the chichi DAV and in the perfect color.

She loves her pink cowgirl boots.

pink vanity
This vanity was $10 at a thrift store. Primer and paint are miracle workers. I found a vintage pillow sham to recover the vanity stool, which I thrifted for $7.
tutu & quilt
I had been on the look out for a vintage tutu or dance costume. If you have been around Brooklyn for ten minutes, you have seen her dance. When I found this one in her favorite purple, (and for $10!) I knew it was meant to be...
vintage sheets

I love it when I find twin size vintage sheets in great condition. We are hard on sheets at our house, and it seems like I am washing bedding every other day. These sheets were $2-$3 each, and they are so super soft. 

Sunday, July 19, 2009

best friends

I am going to make a better effort of blogging our lives here. Partly because I want to share with the friends and family who read my blog, and partly because it is like a scrapbook of sorts. I think the best part of this summer for Brooklyn was a visit from her Uncle Super Nicco. (He prefers to be called Super Nicco.) Grandma took us to Exploration Place, then out for ice cream, and then to the park! It was so much fun!

grandma = fun
Nicco loves dinosaurs. He knew all the names of these guys. Charlotte was mesmerized. She just stared in either amazement or fear, I can't be sure.

tornado crazies

Here they are in the 'tornado'. Despite the look on Nicco's face, they were not scared and were indeed screaming loudly in the funnel tunnel.


She stood there for quite a while. No expression. No movement. Just staring. We called after her to get her to follow us. Nope. She wasn't budging. I went after her and we made our way to the castle...

giddy up!

Giddy up!
Doctors Nicco & Brooklyn
I loved the Vet station there. Of all the cool stuff, I think they played here the longest. I love watching kids pretend play at grown up roles. I love how they talk and try and mimic what they see us doing. They do pay attention! Brooklyn was listening for the "heart beep."

 We sure do miss Nicco. Maybe we could squeeze in one more visit before school starts? Brooklyn and Nicco are best friends. They will both tell you so. And they both act so sad when their visits are over. He is a pretty awesome little brother if I do say so myself. 

Friday, July 10, 2009


I was recently inspired to define my values. It seems like we should all have a good grasp on what our values are. I mean, if we can't be certain of what we value, what is it that we stand for anyway? Sure, I love God. I love my daughters. I value family and home and so many other things. But I have to admit, trying to put pen to paper was not easy. I started a list. (surprise surprise)

Decision making is supposed to be made easier once you define your values. I could definitely benefit from anything that helps in decision making. I found that specifying my values helped. But it also shifted the focus a little bit. I have been weighing everything against this list. I want to move towards a life that supports my values, that reflects what I believe, that creates change. Honestly, I have felt a bit stagnant... complacent. 

If I had a dollar for every time I have said, "I just don't know what the right thing to do is," then I might be one rich girl. I am so motivated by "doing the right thing" and half the time I have no clue what that means. I weigh things against my faith. I weigh things against scripture. I weigh things against my values. I weigh things against what seems to be best for my daughters. Nothing is clear. Nothing is cut and dry. 

I have been practicing asking myself, "What do I want?" It feels selfish. Sometimes what I want feels wrong. Sometimes I wish I could throw my hands up and say I am what I am. I can't be the perfect mom. I can't get married when I have no clue what that is supposed to look like. I can't squeeze myself into the box that never fit me to begin with. I can't pretend a new reality. I can't wear a size six anymore. I can't act like things don't hurt when inside they are eating me alive. I can't provide solid evidence of God. I can't change what has been done. I can't feel guilty for everything all the time. I can't worry myself sick with what may be while life passes by. I can't change who I am according to his needs. I can't stop adhering to my values, for they will be all that is left of me when I am gone. 

In the last few years, I have been taken to parts of the world that I would rather not know. I have experienced things I would have never wanted to experience. I have felt pain in a way that I never had before. I have become helpless before God, fighting for those that I love with prayer. I have made some really poor choices and I have done everything I could to keep from looking at the truth. There is no running from the truth. You can pretend your whole life long, but it finds you. It won't let you be. Maybe that is the curse of loving God. He won't let you follow down that road. He won't let you get comfortable in false sense of love. He won't let you walk down that isle. He won't let you lose yourself in the world and its trickery. He won't let you get too far away that you can't hear Him call you back. He won't leave or forsake you when you almost rather be left or forsaken. God doesn't work like that, so I am learning. 

Trust. Yuck. I wouldn't know where to begin. How do I trust? How do I ever begin to experience God's love and trust it, when every person I have ever loved has abandoned me? betrayed me? broken my spirit? I have been looking for certainty in an uncertain world. And when I couldn't find it, I went about creating it. Every day, I would tell myself I had it. I wore rings that represented it. I smiled at the family functions so they could see I had it. I went to school because that was like insurance for it. I dressed my daughters the part. The irony? The only certain thing about either of their lives: ME. That's it. I have been the only constant. I have been looking everywhere for just something, anything, that I can count on no matter what. And all the while my daughters have been looking to me... 

You know what? It is about time that I recognized that I will never find what I am looking for in this world. I might catch glimpses of it- maybe in my daughters' eyes, or on my wedding day. I am tired of searching in all the wrong places. My efforts have been fruitless and exhausting. That's the other thing, God will let you chase it til you have no choice but to come back to Him. 

I have my faith. My values. My daughters. My God. Besides that, nothing is certain. But I have a feeling that these are all I need. I have a feeling that if I start chasing after these things, life will get a little easier. It will make a little more sense. Life will be completely uncertain, but trust will be enough. 

Monday, July 6, 2009

I should be cleaning.

I should be cleaning. The girls are with grandma and grandpa. I should be cleaning...

but instead I have been catching up with all the lovely blogs I love. I think I can pull away now. Because it is most necessary...

So much to do...

I hope you all are having a lovely Monday.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

exciting new ventures

I thought I would finally share. The logo above isn't set in stone... but I created all by myself! I am still working on the website, and I will post when it becomes official.

The other big thing that has been keeping me busy:

If you have the chance, stop on by!


copyright: Please don't reproduce my logo, I would greatly appreciate that.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

some june finds

Here are my most recent finds. 
big blue basket for my gardening gear
iron candle holder thingy, which i have several ideas for.
a "candlelier" which i will paint and hang from a tree for our outside meals.
i am slowly acquiring some vintage hangers for a display. stay tuned...
and of course the vintage bird prints had to come home with me!

This should be a great thrifting weekend, with plenty of July 4th discounts! 

Happy Thrifting!